from the dark to the light
My cold won’t go, but it’s not as bad as it was. So I’m doing some light cardio, speed walking, crunches and squats mainly.
My aim for now has to be to maintain what I’ve lost until I recover.
My sister has had confirmation, her Cancer has not spread, so she’s having the tuma removed in the next month.
Oh well just a brief one today but I know I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me!!!!!!!!
Clarence my inner chimp, would describe September as a overwhelming one of frustration, having continued to excersise and eat sensibly even going largely bread free, I’ve gotten the first cold of the season, which has meant a week of only walking Stella, but still watching what I eat, my sisters cancer being a confirmed diagnosis.
But my human who is slowly winning control, boxes Clarence, understanding his frustration, yes we’ve got a cold, but it will go, and we will return to training, continue to to eat sensibly, rather than diet, and no longer be dominated by emotion, preferably rational thinking and deduction, LOGIC.
My sisters cancer holds no certainty, to calm Clarence with, and whilst I believe that staying positive and trusting the specialist will overcome this, we must take each step as a family, and as each step comes, no point letting clarence take steps that need not be, to many times have i let Clarence’s fear overule my rationale!
This blog, I also realised has been such a revealing and therefore great idea, reviewing some of my posts, I begin to see changes in my thinking, and my language.
2015 so far has seen a massive tidal change, I’m still not saying that my journey is over, rather like “the fool” on the Tarot cards, I have met Death,(in Tarot it means change, upright for the better, upside down maybe for the worse (forgive me if I recall this badly as it is sometime since I have had my cards read)) in that I have changed who I am, to become who I want to be, but I repeat the change is not complete. I still let Clarence get out of his tree, with a couple of people, where I would prefer my human side maintain control. But I’m sure that time will guide my hand in that change too.
Still I know that I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me!!!!
The weather is getting colder, and I’ve got the first cold of the season, which has dented my training schedule. I’m still walking Stella
But haven’t really worked out this week, as Ive been feeling a bit dilapidated. I do intend to redouble my efforts when I shake this cold off.
Things are surprising me though, my ability to turn the positive especially, and managing to keep my sister positive with what she’s going thru.
But I know I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me
Feeling a little like I may have a cold coming, but not wanting it too affect my regime too much, I added a 45 minute power walk with Stella thru the woods tonight.
After the first 2 days of this week over I am feeling jinxed, yesterday I backed into a post damaging my van, £350 down the pan. Today I make a toilet stop and come out to find a cement truck has damaged the same van, I suppose being positive it means I won’t have to pay the £350.
Yesterday my sister had more tests, on her leg, but no results, we are for the momen remaining positive.
Because I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me!!!!!!!!
Got up this morning in the usual way, coffee and out with Stella, 1.5 mile steady run. Going home to peanut butter toast possibly with scrambled egg.
So proud of the way my daughter handled being told her Aunt has cancer, I wasn’t gonna mention CANCER but having decided I would answer her questions truthfully, when she said Does Tuma mean cancer I had to say yes, I immediately countered saying we can’t say for certain yet but it doesn’t appear to be spreading.
She has my, my mum’s and sisters numbers again, so any more questions we can answer between us.
So yet again I’ve proven I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me!!!!!!!!!!!
First run of the week, constant 11kph run for 20 minutes, sweating and showered.
I’ve been a little lazy fitnesswise this week, but following a suggestion from one of my followers, spent the last 2 days virtually bread free, apart from one bridge roll with dinner yesterday.
Had 2 days to get my head around my sister having PEComa, a rare firm of bone cancer, however having spoken properly to her, we’ll know more monday, after she’s had another Mri, but they don’t seem to be worried, about it spreading, as they’ve already had blood tests.
Although she is prob gonna end up having a plastic knee and top third of her shin.
We’re trying to keep her positive, and tbh I’ve spoken to her more in the last 7 days than I have all year.
Oh well, I can do this, because I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me!!!!!
Start my day in the usual way, coffee milk 2, then grab the dogs lead and away into the woods, turn on RUNTASTIC and hit a mile and a half run, running at a good pace.
I get home and my better half Louise has gone to work, leaving me a note, clean the kitchen please.
So I prepare my Warm lemon water, drink it, and start, moving things from an area, De grub it, wash it over replace and move in, an hour later I put the last item back, and decided to hoover and mop thru.
I will nevery say Lou has it easy again, although I never recall saying it anyway, the sweat was dropping off me.
Weirdly Clarence liked it, seeing the kitchen looking clean and tidy, after our efforts.
So my respect goes to all you domestic cleaners out there.
I’m feeling pretty good, hoping for results after a hard week of excersising, I am praying I’ve got off this plateau, even a single lb would be a result, but I’m conscious that the achievement is in doing, results are a bonus, (my beloved Liverpool Fc always do their best, but don’t know what the result will be until the fat lady sings!)
Oh well as I’ve said a hundred times before I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today’s workout,
1 3*12 fire hydrants
2 3*12 lunges
3 3*12 back kicks,
Plus an extra set of hydrants.
Then 3 sets of 10 push ups one if which were spiderman push ups.
If I’m not off this plateau this week I’ll be very surprised, as I’ve worked hard thus week, even yesterday when I only ran, I ran hard and burnt over 500 calories.
But if I’m not off the plateau ill not be disappointed as I’m doing the work, burning the calories and the fat, I’m even having a cold shower for thirty seconds at the end of my shower, to generate good brown fat, apparently.
Oh well you already know how I’m going to end this post I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me!!!!!!!!!
Light run for 35 minutes tonight about 3 miles I believe, as my app lost signal conveniently.
Hard work this week, which I hope will see me of this plateau, although I’m aware that the achievement is in the doing, rather than the results.
The healthy sweat, is a sign of activity, I still need a shower
My running partner again, my dog Stella.
I’ll make the most of September as the light will fade fast after that. And I’ll be confined to home workouts.
Clarence my inner chimp seems quiet again since I started running again.I think he like the feeling of getting fitter and stronger. Where as I like knowing I’m losing weight, and Inches.
For those of you who don’t know what I mean by my inner chimp, I strongly suggest you read “the chimp paradox?” a brilliant book that with help from “@Oldtownhypno” changed my life.
You can because I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me!!!!!!!!!
Got up this morning had my usual coffee, walked Stella
Came home and completed a butt workout, of
1 lunges
2 donkey kicks
3 fire hydrants
Then
5 yoga poses,
Mountain
Downward facing dog
Side stretch
Cobra
Warrior 3
And finally 15 minutes pilates and my abs, butt and upper legs are screaming at me.
Added 8x60M sprints this evening
Once I’ve written this ill have a pint of warm lemon water.
To the real fitness experts amongst you, my apps tell me I can eat 2500 calories but I’m not getting anywhere near, lucky if I get to 2000. Is this a bad thing, as I’m stuck on a plateau. I’m not gonna let this get me down though, the achievement is in the act, results are a bonus.
Oh well I CAN I CAN I CAN you just watch me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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