In Jun 2012 11 days short of his 82nd birthday my father finally circummed to his ailments and died.
I never realised until that day, at the age of 40 how much I relied on his council. I became angry and that anger centred on a person who my father had raised my suspicions of. But I’ve realised (I think) the person I was actually angry at was me, but I didn’t know why.
After 4 years I think I’ve finally realised why, I rely too much on other people, dad, my mother, brother etc. I guess it’s what led to my problems because if it went wrong I had someone to blame.
The chimp paradox has made me realise that they were only my council and that I’m responsible for the decisions I took with or without their guidance.
The question is,how do I learn to trust my own judgement again.
You just try and stop me now